It is not as if I am unsafe or careless.Ĩ:00 a.m. I have become so much more confident and open (hello, I am keeping a public diary of my sexual escapades!) since going to parties and orgies and I do not feel ashamed about embracing that side of my sexuality. It’s been about a year now since my first sex party. For me, it is definitely nice to get that attention, but it is also about getting more comfortable with myself. At a salad-bar lunch with my friend from work, I ask her if my constant need for sexual attention is a bad thing, She tells me it is definitely a way to inflate my ego, but not necessarily a bad thing … I kind of agree. I suck him off for about ten minutes until we move to the bed and he comes all over his stomach.ġ:45 p.m. I walk in and he pulls down his pants and pushes me to my knees. I pause and jerk off to some porn.ġ:15 p.m. The two male characters start making out. We chat for a bit about upcoming weekend plans.ħ:45 p.m. We’re young and don’t need to rush things. It’s a nonmonogamous relationship but that might change as things progress it’s still early in the relationship and we’re figuring it all out. We’ve been together for three months and we are allowed to basically do anything we want. My “boyfriend” texts me so I close the app and answer. I get a slice of pizza before hopping on the subway.ġ2:45 p.m. I shower, get my clothes, thank the host, say I will see him next month, and leave. I don’t pay attention to it, but I do enjoy feeling eyes on me.ġ0:55 p.m. Gorgeous-tall-Latino end up fucking on one of the couches in the back and I can tell we drew a big crowd. I do end up blowing him for about 15 minutes in the middle of the big room.ġ0:30 p.m. In other words, to be so exposed, you feel like you can say or do anything. Sometimes, it’s more about the mind than the body. I end up talking to this random guy about my job and how stressed I am. This is the most crowded I have seen this party! It’s hard to move around without bumping into everyone, which is all part of the fun. He returns the favor and then says he wants to fuck me. I say hi to a few of the guys I see at every party and then spot a gorgeous, tall, Latino guy looking at me across the room. I have stripped down and checked my clothes. I open the door to his Chelsea loft and there are already about 100 guys there. I’m part of this gay sex-party circuit, the places change, but some faces stay the same. I ring the buzzer and the owner of the sex-party apartment lets me up. Part liquid courage part because I had more time to kill.Ĩ:35 p.m. I grab two beers at some bar around the corner. I finally leave work to kill two hours until the party starts. He calls me “baby” and I pretty much just do it for that reason … I’m all for being admired.Ħ:30 p.m. The guy around the corner whom I occasionally blow on my lunch break wants me to come by. I work in a glamorous industry, but more the “scheduling, budgets, and paperwork” side. At work I sit at a computer on a communal table all day long. I wake up horny (as usual) but hold off on getting off because I have a party that night.ġ2:45 p.m. This week, a man in a new relationship who seeks spontaneous sex from strangers and Fire Island flings: male, 27, Brooklyn, television industry, in a three-month relationship, gay.ħ:50 a.m. Check back Tuesday afternoons for your weekly peek behind doors left slightly ajar. This summer, the Sex Diaries will appear on the Cut as a special edition.
New York ’s Sex Diaries series asks anonymous diarists to record a week in their sex lives - with comic, tragic, often sexy, and always revealing results.